I feel like Shit today =]

When everything you have just isn't enough, even though you appreciate what you have and love it there is still something missing, like a blackhole in your tummy. The few things you want but don't have you can't have and what you do have you don't want cause it's just to easy. This makes no sence but i am mind fucked and screwed up so who the fuck cares!!

Ghost

Have you ever woken up from a dream convinced you were about to die? Terrified out of your mind and not even remember the dream? I just did that except i wasn't asleep, just walked into my house a night went to pet the dog and noticed he looks wrong. I don't know why because it was definitely him but he looked different. Walking up the stairs to my room had my heart pounding and tears brewing in my eyes because something isn't right. Is it happening backward? So instead of waking up thinking I'm dying, I will fall asleep thinking it.
I am terrified, heart trying to beat it's way out of my chest, shaking from head to toe, there is nothing i can do but go to bed and hope i wake up as normal tomorrow.